I Smile Yet I Frown

I smile yet i frown at the fact that i have u yet i missed out on so much.

I smile yet i frown b/c i love wat we're doing but i wonder if it just may be a little too much.
I smile yet i frown at the complete joy u bring me when we are together yet the thought of EVER loosing u makes me want to shed a tear.
I smile yet i frown knowing that my love for u is unconditional yet i know to the "rules" of love we may not adhere.

I smile yet i frown knowing that i mean alot to u but i may never be ur number one.

I smile yet i frown knowing u love me but wondering if our love like a gun...firing off the last round and then its done?

I smile yet i frown when i look at u and instantly become happy but in the back of my mind there's a uncontrolable fear.

I smile yet i frown knowing that our future is closer, yet the past is undeniably ALWAYS near.

-wlcm Arica Rae'Shon M.