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Could this be love

He told me "I love you," its written in the skies.
But when I say it back, I feel an emptiness in my eyes.
Could this be love or just lust in disguise?
The man of my dreams was a man of my past.
Now, I might have a future in the palm of my hands.
Could this be love, starring me right in my eyes?
The heartache I felt was like a decade long.
Until I asked for real love and I started to move on.
Could this be love, I'm not sure inside?
I love you still, I'll love you always.
But my heart has to stop here, it was your plan to  part ways.
Could this be love?
I'm not sure if its true,
If it is true love,
I'm happy HE heard me from up above,
But saddened, that it wasn't with you.

Understanding a Man (via my tweets)

They are dealing with a man that has never really been nor felt truly loved by his mother nor another woman.

So it's going to be hard for him to trust a woman for a long time unless you are adamant about showing him he can trust you to the fullest.

These females that are of his choice only show him what he shows them because they are too immature to understand the nature of a male.

They can't understand that men tend to run from love only because they have a dominate nature that tends to come with an ego.

And that ego tells them to refuse the woman that they know without a doubt that they love because she knows too much about him, more than he.

But god made woman from the man's rib so why would she not know you. You are what is familiar. She IS you. So why run?

God placed that type of familiarity on this earth to remind you of his love. Just to remind you how you're made in his image. And he loves, so you can too.
Its nothing wrong with loyalty but you have to trust in it and have faith that your other half will too.

Give In

You await that day that I just give up and give in.
You can't wait to hear my moans of defeat.
You keep giving me your all, oh I can tell.
The short sharp thrusts indicate your concentration belongs only to my body.
That small bead of sweat forming right above your brow proves you to be a hard worker.
Faster Faster!
You can enjoy the ride.
Your body keeps overloading from all the excitment inside.
Eventually convulsions replace your short thrusts.
Refusing to let my body defeat you, you turn to long strokes,
For this accomplishment is a must.
Like a gambler to a casino you proceed to reappear.
Hoping that THIS time, you won't keep having to confront  your fear.
Not knowing that THIS time, yet again, there's just no luck.
I'm sorry to say it, the head was great; but, you were'nt a good fuck.

                                               *kanye shrug*

Nothing At All

How will we ever learn to love the opposite sex when the most important people of the opposite sex neglected us?
Leaving us to forever search for that one person will be able to show us what it means to be loved by another.
That same neglect is then transferred to the one that just may be willing to give you their all.
So we run.
We run from that possible true love
because it is just way to foreign to our emotions.
Our heart can't help our mind enough when trying to convince it these feelings just may be real.
So instead of sticking it out and finding our own path toward OUR OWN love
we would much rather flea.
We would rather clean up the emotional mess and confusion that our mouths and hearts have conjured.
We would much rather hide it all, turn our backs, and walk away with nothing at all.

Love Ignored

Although we are apart
And we can't seem to wrap our minds around it all
As much as we play pretend
Or sometimes even ignore our emotions,
When we see each other,
The clouds clear
And our smiles brighten one another's day.
Because for a moment, our presence allows time for
Our hearts to have a dance together;
And our souls will forever mingle.

The Chess Player

Before You Read: This was something that I wrote when I first decided to sit down and figure out some things about myself. I had been to reserved that I didnt feel like anything was wromg with me until a friend asked me why I was so bitter. If you have never evaluated your life you should because you may never know yourself until you ask.

No one knows me for real. My friends and even family have no clue. I dont open up. I'm like a stuborn rose bud that just wont open.There is a wonderful beauty inside me that I just will not show.

A friend said, "I love you rica." So I said, "you too." Then he asked me, "Why are you so bitter? Why wont you say i love you?"

My problem is that I'm too much of a chess player in life. I think of the next possible moves before I make my move. I'm never spontaneous because I'm afraid of the possible outcomes.

I cried when I said I love you to this guy because I truely meant it. I said this after five years and a mishap and he didnt realize my feelings or maybe I just waited too long.That was what I was afraid of all along.When I realized I had missed out on him I felt the need or obligation to let him know that I always felt this way about him.

I've always felt that the words "i love you" were very powerful and that they shouldnt be thrown around or passed out to just anyone.It's just the chess player in me.     Luv and LOVE are two different feelings.

The thing is... I cant even play a game of chess if I tried. So, maybe thats why im so great at ruining my chances... by thinking to much on things that are obvious.

-Arica Rae'Shon M.