Your Soul Waitress

How can you smell like my past...I'm not sure which one. But I know you. Something about you is familiar. I can't put my finger on it..but you have that thing that attracts me. There's a bit more of the puzzle in you. Idk if you're the whole spirit I'm searching for or if you just came from the same wavelength as him/her..but you smell, feel, look, familiar...where did we meet before??? I just feel India when she says, "like maybe I was your husband and maybe you were my wife.."

I can see the truth that you hide.
Even when you be fakin'.
If there's no need for games, then what is it you're contemplatin'?
The longest routes you're always takin',
just to see
if my loyalty
comes naturally
like my hair, that they say needs straightenin'. Love is the Entrée and you got my soul waitin'..

🌌🌜🌞
-Makeda Meraki

Black Child Magic

Hey little black girl
Hey
Hey little black boy
Hey
Read little black girl
Read
Be little black girl
Be
Free little black boy
Free
Think little black boy
Think
Seek the truth and you shall see:
Little black kings and queens
You can be anything
Anything your heart can dream
You can learn everything
Everything you want to learn
You can harness your ancestors
Ancestors bring strength
You can rewrite history
History becomes Your story
When you learn
Knowledge is Strength
Strength is power
And Little Black Children
You have the power.
Some call it melanin, some call magic.
Well let me tell you, its Black child magic. 😘

-Makeda Meraki
🌌🌜🌞

Black Child Magic

Hey little black girl
Hey
Hey little black boy
Hey
Read little black girl
Read
Be little black girl
Be
Free little black boy
Free
Think little black boy
Think
Seek the truth and you shall see:
Little black kings and queens
You can be anything
Anything your heart can dream
You can learn everything
Everything you want to learn
You can harness your ancestors
Ancestors bring strength
You can rewrite history
History becomes Your story
When you learn
Knowledge is Strength
Strength is power
And Little Black Children
You have the power.
Some call it melanin, some call magic.
Well let me tell you, its Black child magic. 😘

-Makeda Meraki
🌌🌜🌞

Spirit Sex

I'll mind fuck you then tell you not to get too caught up in your thoughts.

Better and better it only gets better.

I'm such an unusual girl in this peculiar world, so within your heart you call me a trendsetter.

A kiss so sincere its like your spirit's sending a call back home after being gone so long..

-Makeda Meraki
🌌🌜🌞

Still Waiting

There's a misconfiguration within our determination to do better as a people and rise above as a nation. Maybe, its still due to what Ms. Hill said, you know back in the 90s?..
The Miseducation.

The world and its wicked ways has caused a haze, blinding us all from loving.
Blaming the past on which we've passed as to why we're all still hating, debating,
or just trying to be seen as one,
Yea, its 2017, but
We're still waiting...

Signed,

     America

-Makeda Meraki

Suicide Note

Tbh as a child. I went through so much, saw so much, and felt so much negativity mentally, physically, and emotionally that I literally aspired to be alone. I could never say anything about what i saw bc I'd end up in a foster home or something. And i was the oldest so i had to pretend everything was okay in front of my baby sister and brother, no matter how much i really understood or overheard. I felt inadequate at school (yes i was bullied) and home. I never wanted to feel that alone again without actually being alone. I struggled with suicidal thoughts often. But never went through with it BC of my brother and sister. I just wanted to get away from the hatred, the mean words that so easily flowed from the mouths of strangers and those that are considered family due to a bloodline, and the struggle. I don't know how to love properly BC I feel like I was never truly loved properly from my birth forward. Therefore I guess I never for saw me being married and finding someone, let alone people that actually GAF about how I feel. So if I'm standoffish its BC I can't love half assed like others. Its ALL or NOTHING with me. Every time I have tried to love others its broken me apart in the end. I'm sorry but I'm broken. And only I can fix me. Fixing me means I have to leave everyone behind. I don't want to be here. Literally. I ask 'God' why did I have to be born and why am i here a lot. I have to figure it out before I call it quits all together BC I'm very tired. Imagine forcing yourself to live for others since the age of 10 and you're now 25..

I Just Watched

I just watched a 15year old boy break down
I just cried with him as he broke down during the press conference that was held for his father's death.
I just watched a15year old black boy's spirit die with his father today.
I just watched him as he tried to be strong as his mother spoke and ended up being the new family backbone.
I just watched another melanin filled soul be shot down by law enforcement!
I just watched a father be taken out of a black home yet again, and we know there will be NO indictment, probably just financial endorsements!
I JUST CRIED for a man I don't know.
I JUST watched a boy become a man then revert to a crying child in need of his father again!
I just cried and wiped away my tears, in doing this i realized how often our tears are wiped away as if it never mattered, like it's over when it's not
I just watched another brother die and his sons left to wander the streets without him
I just watched their mother be left alone when she thought she had it figured out.
I just watched a woman be strong when she thought she had a man to do that for her.
I just watched a murder... Again.
I'm tired of JUST WATCHING and JUST CRYING!
Aren't you?????

-Makeda Meraki