Manufactured Love

Lies...

Ever been used to them? You know, just listening to them, making the fabricator think you believe..? I have.. I know one when I hear one...I know but I say nothing. I allow you to duplicate your lies until you believe them. Until they become true. Until I believe too..

But what if the time runs out? And I don't succeed. And no matter how many times you tell me, you don't believe. And I look up to realize its still not true. And the Times run out, and my beauty too..

It'll never be, what I could see. Only the things, that left you with me. No I'm not number one. No I'm not the same. I'll never be the way, you envisioned things.

But throughout the pain, I never think to walk away. Not your fault, it's all on me. I allow this to be, so I can't help repeating, "please, just love ME..."

*Not that I don't think I'm good enough, sometimes I just don't think I am enough.*

One Glance

Sometimes I wonder if he'll leave the girl that he, only once, noticed.
Never seen by many
He only took a look once.
Never noticing her care.
Never noticing SHE'S  there.
Overlooking her presence
Only acknowledging her essence.
A shoulder to cry on.
But her heart always worries.
Is she delicate enough to be seen as pretty?
In the dark she stayed
Only because she was afraid,
That the man of her dreams would just soon fade away
Like everything she'd loved so dear
The one thing she wanted filled her with so much fear
To love unconditionally
And trust in someone
My prayers are real.
I've got you, but I'm so scared.
One day you won't be here.
One day you won't think I'm beautiful.
One day you'll walk away, and my every thing won't be around to tell me it's okay,
Or just to kid around.
One day my fairytale dream will come to an end.
No marriage, no kids, no white picket fence.
No more best friend.
And that ONE glance you took at me will come to an end.