Im happy because I chose to be.
I'm happy bc the only man whom I rely on to help me with my happiness is God.
I don't depend on any man nor woman for that matter to approve of or hand over my happiness.
It's something inside me.
It's something I chose to do.
I've been depressed, wishing I was dead, wanting to run away, and even attempting the deadly deed numerous times.
No one knew.
Why?
Because even then I knew that I could depend on no one to make me happy.
I'm only here bc I stopped.
I'm only here bc I chose to be.
I'm only here bc I knew the people that "loved" me didn't know that I didn't love me and I could barely feel their "love" through all the arguments and hatred.
People can believe what they want.
But, for me, God was my therapist.
I've always loved prayer.
It's my internal letter to the Lord.
And, even when I don't think he's getting any of my messages;
I'm content with waiting on my blessings
bc I know I'm an angel,
I know I'm a child of God;
And, no matter what people say to make me feel like I'm less
bc I'm plus size,
bc I'm black,
bc I think for myself,
or bc I'm female.
It doesn't matter
HE hears my cries
And I AM LOVED.
